I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
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- Crossbow
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I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Okay, listen. I've been hanging out around the forums for the past -- well, I don't know how long? A few days at least. I haven't made any posts before this one, but there was that... awkward Discord chat, and if you haven't figured out that was me yet then this is your time to be let in on the "conspiracy," which may all actually be a delusion inside my head. So stop blaming each other! You're all friends. To be entirely clear, I am NOT normally a part of these forums, I am NEW here, and I get deeply confused about all of your nicknames anyway.
I'm extremely mentally ill, extremely, (I would like to emphasize that one more time, *I am extremely mentally ill*) and I don't actually know if what I've been hearing/seeing/imagining going on in your forums is real or not. I keep going back and forth between thinking it's a bunch of hallucinations and thinking it's very real and thus very terrifying.
What I keep seeing is a bunch of intelligent guys who can hack into my phone and computer and threaten me through it, make a bunch of witty comments about my numerous flaws and developmental setbacks and downright irritating personality, and take the opportunity to turn the online community against me to be a malicious place. I have been sincerely hoping since the first time I ended up on your forums that it was some kind of mistake or that I was genuinely hallucinating because you guys were also (in my head if nothing else) exposing *my* friends to the internet and possibly destroying their lives and careers.
Coincidentally, on the day I tried to establish contact for the first time, your forums went down and everything got moved around, which as you can imagine, did nothing for my paranoid psychosis nor for my sense of stability or trust in my own brain. I was terrified. I could not possibly think of what I had done that was so awful that you would try to ruin my life over it with a very public witchhunt. But everyone assured me that I was crazy. So I tried to move on.
As you can see I have been unable to, and the situation has been escalating in my head -- and in reality, whether or not I'm delusional. I want to be up front and apologize, if I am being unjustly harassing; it was never my intention to harass anyone at all. You will never hear from me again after today, whether I'm correct or not.
I wish everyone all the best, and I'm sorry that I've gone on as long as I have.
I'm extremely mentally ill, extremely, (I would like to emphasize that one more time, *I am extremely mentally ill*) and I don't actually know if what I've been hearing/seeing/imagining going on in your forums is real or not. I keep going back and forth between thinking it's a bunch of hallucinations and thinking it's very real and thus very terrifying.
What I keep seeing is a bunch of intelligent guys who can hack into my phone and computer and threaten me through it, make a bunch of witty comments about my numerous flaws and developmental setbacks and downright irritating personality, and take the opportunity to turn the online community against me to be a malicious place. I have been sincerely hoping since the first time I ended up on your forums that it was some kind of mistake or that I was genuinely hallucinating because you guys were also (in my head if nothing else) exposing *my* friends to the internet and possibly destroying their lives and careers.
Coincidentally, on the day I tried to establish contact for the first time, your forums went down and everything got moved around, which as you can imagine, did nothing for my paranoid psychosis nor for my sense of stability or trust in my own brain. I was terrified. I could not possibly think of what I had done that was so awful that you would try to ruin my life over it with a very public witchhunt. But everyone assured me that I was crazy. So I tried to move on.
As you can see I have been unable to, and the situation has been escalating in my head -- and in reality, whether or not I'm delusional. I want to be up front and apologize, if I am being unjustly harassing; it was never my intention to harass anyone at all. You will never hear from me again after today, whether I'm correct or not.
I wish everyone all the best, and I'm sorry that I've gone on as long as I have.
Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
stop eating meat buddy
- lemmings121
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
wait what? I dont even.... I'm confused.
- edeholland
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
This is Pigeon10 level of confusing.
Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
You will never hear from me again after today, whether I'm correct or not.
/thread I suppose.
Pay more attention to detail.
Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
is this a troll post or did he do bath salts
thebritish wrote: AA>going fortress
Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
is this a troll post or did he do bath salts
thebritish wrote: AA>going fortress
Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Don't do drugs kids.
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What discord chat are you referring to exactly? When was it?
- Challenger_Marco
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Lol this guy is Phish btw.
Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Isn't he the same guy who was sending weird messages to incog. He made a post with screenshots..
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Or maybe lucailgrande?
- fightinfrenchman
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Some people mistakenly believed this guy was me in the discord. He is not! I am still not allowed in the discord for whatever reason.
@watchinguwatchme
@watchinguwatchme
I can understand your paranoia, people on these forums often go after me in that way and have gotten to cheadar.watchinguwatchme wrote:notification
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Hey, you haven't done anything wrong and you have no need to feel bad or apologize. If you are mentally ill, I hope you are getting help and talking to a professional to help you. Good luck buddy!
Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Isnt this the guy who sent @iNcog
that spam message?iNcog wrote:notification
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- Crossbow
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
[quote="noissance"]Isnt this the guy who sent [b][b]@iNcog[/b][/b] [notify-user][quote="iNcog[/b]"]notification[/quote][/notify-user] [quote="iNcog"][/quote]that spam message?[/quote]
It was not meant to be spam. I am sorry for that also.
It was not meant to be spam. I am sorry for that also.
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- Crossbow
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Hmmm. I'm not very good at these forums, it seems.
- dietschlander
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
^still welcome buddy. Have a nice day today! Theres a party at Soldiers' house btw and yr invited to
Theres going to be a dam, the great dam and we'll let the beavers pay for it - Edeholland 2016
Anyway, nuancing isn't your forte, so I'll agree with you like I would with a 8 year old: violence is bad, don't do hard drugs and stay in school Benj98
Anyway, nuancing isn't your forte, so I'll agree with you like I would with a 8 year old: violence is bad, don't do hard drugs and stay in school Benj98
- fightinfrenchman
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
watchinguwatchme wrote:Hmmm. I'm not very good at these forums, it seems.
I can't believe people thought you were me. I'm great at the forums!
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
noissance wrote:Isnt this the guy who sent @iNcogthat spam message?iNcog wrote:notification
Yeh
watchinguwatchme wrote:
It was not meant to be spam. I am sorry for that also.
Don't worry about it. I still have absolutely NO idea what's going on, but that being the case it also means that you can't possibly have rubbed me (or anyone else for that matter) wrong.
It's very possible that you were mixed up with someone else mistakenly or something? That could explain how some people may have accidentally been rude to you (thinking you were a smurf account or something).
Either way, you're best off just posting on ESOC and joining the community. Most fun solution to this issue. xP
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- Crossbow
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
I am afraid that while logically I realize my brain is thinking ridiculous things, emotionally I'm still suspicious. I'm likely going to be kind of a lurker around here for a while longer... But hopefully not permanently. I actually, uh, don't even play aoe... Which probably only contributed to my confusion, I have no idea what you guys are even saying some of the time.
You've (mostly, lol) been very kind and understanding, and it's appreciated, thank you. You can ban this account if you want, I don't mind. It might be more constructive for everyone that way anyway.
You've (mostly, lol) been very kind and understanding, and it's appreciated, thank you. You can ban this account if you want, I don't mind. It might be more constructive for everyone that way anyway.
Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
It's cool of you to share something this personal with us, strangers, over the internet. Welcome! c:
Don't let the things you can't change dictate your life.
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- Crossbow
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Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
Lol... You forgot your sarcasm tag.
Re: I'm terribly sorry. <-- go forth and flame.
watchinguwatchme wrote:Lol... You forgot your sarcasm tag.
No.
Don't let the things you can't change dictate your life.
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