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Okay, listen. I've been hanging out around the forums for the past -- well, I don't know how long? A few days at least. I haven't made any posts before this one, but there was that... awkward Discord chat, and if you haven't figured out that was me yet then this is your time to be let in on the "conspiracy," which may all actually be a delusion inside my head. So stop blaming each other! You're all friends. To be entirely clear, I am NOT normally a part of these forums, I am NEW here, and I get deeply confused about all of your nicknames anyway.

I'm extremely mentally ill, extremely, (I would like to emphasize that one more time, *I am extremely mentally ill*) and I don't actually know if what I've been hearing/seeing/imagining going on in your forums is real or not. I keep going back and forth between thinking it's a bunch of hallucinations and thinking it's very real and thus very terrifying.

What I keep seeing is a bunch of intelligent guys who can hack into my phone and computer and threaten me through it, make a bunch of witty comments about my numerous flaws and developmental setbacks and downright irritating personality, and take the opportunity to turn the online community against me to be a malicious place. I have been sincerely hoping since the first time I ended up on your forums that it was some kind of mistake or that I was genuinely hallucinating because you guys were also (in my head if nothing else) exposing *my* friends to the internet and possibly destroying their lives and careers.

Coincidentally, on the day I tried to establish contact for the first time, your forums went down and everything got moved around, which as you can imagine, did nothing for my paranoid psychosis nor for my sense of stability or trust in my own brain. I was terrified. I could not possibly think of what I had done that was so awful that you would try to ruin my life over it with a very public witchhunt. But everyone assured me that I was crazy. So I tried to move on.

As you can see I have been unable to, and the situation has been escalating in my head -- and in reality, whether or not I'm delusional. I want to be up front and apologize, if I am being unjustly harassing; it was never my intention to harass anyone at all. You will never hear from me again after today, whether I'm correct or not.

I wish everyone all the best, and I'm sorry that I've gone on as long as I have. :salt:
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stop eating meat buddy
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wait what? I dont even.... I'm confused.
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This is Pigeon10 level of confusing.
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You will never hear from me again after today, whether I'm correct or not.

/thread I suppose.
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is this a troll post or did he do bath salts
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is this a troll post or did he do bath salts
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lol wtf
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What discord chat are you referring to exactly? When was it?
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Lol this guy is Phish btw.
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Isn't he the same guy who was sending weird messages to incog. He made a post with screenshots..
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Or maybe lucailgrande?
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Some people mistakenly believed this guy was me in the discord. He is not! I am still not allowed in the discord for whatever reason.

@watchinguwatchme I can understand your paranoia, people on these forums often go after me in that way and have gotten to cheadar.
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Hey, you haven't done anything wrong and you have no need to feel bad or apologize. If you are mentally ill, I hope you are getting help and talking to a professional to help you. Good luck buddy!
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Isnt this the guy who sent @iNcog that spam message?
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[quote="noissance"]Isnt this the guy who sent [b][b]@iNcog[/b][/b] [notify-user][quote="iNcog[/b]"]notification[/quote][/notify-user] [quote="iNcog"][/quote]that spam message?[/quote]

It was not meant to be spam. I am sorry for that also.
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Hmmm. I'm not very good at these forums, it seems.
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^still welcome buddy. Have a nice day today! Theres a party at Soldiers' house btw and yr invited to
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watchinguwatchme wrote:Hmmm. I'm not very good at these forums, it seems.


I can't believe people thought you were me. I'm great at the forums!
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noissance wrote:Isnt this the guy who sent @iNcog that spam message?


Yeh

watchinguwatchme wrote:
It was not meant to be spam. I am sorry for that also.


Don't worry about it. I still have absolutely NO idea what's going on, but that being the case it also means that you can't possibly have rubbed me (or anyone else for that matter) wrong.

It's very possible that you were mixed up with someone else mistakenly or something? That could explain how some people may have accidentally been rude to you (thinking you were a smurf account or something).

Either way, you're best off just posting on ESOC and joining the community. Most fun solution to this issue. xP
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I am afraid that while logically I realize my brain is thinking ridiculous things, emotionally I'm still suspicious. I'm likely going to be kind of a lurker around here for a while longer... But hopefully not permanently. I actually, uh, don't even play aoe... Which probably only contributed to my confusion, I have no idea what you guys are even saying some of the time.

You've (mostly, lol) been very kind and understanding, and it's appreciated, thank you. You can ban this account if you want, I don't mind. It might be more constructive for everyone that way anyway.
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It's cool of you to share something this personal with us, strangers, over the internet. Welcome! c:
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Lol... You forgot your sarcasm tag.
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watchinguwatchme wrote:Lol... You forgot your sarcasm tag.

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