I'm not cool

[deleted_user]

I don't do psychedelics, coke, or nitrous. I don't have any tattoos, especially not stick n poke. I'm not a tortured grad student, PhD student; I'm a tortured loner. I can't dance. I'm not even a very good alcoholic, I still have a job I hate. I know no artists.

I don't dye my hair, I've never went skinny dipping. I can't write well. I've stopped self harming. What can I do? I vent on vidya forums. I call ex girlfriends (2) blackout. I do this shit.

I don't draw, write, or play an instrument with any special talent. I've become intimidated by literature, so my only pull is fading. Loud sounds scare me and I don't like anime any more.

I heard a philosopher say ultimate melancholy is the absolution of desire. I cannot stop wishing I'd thought that. I'm not cool like Ted Kooser! I'm not cool like King Missile!

[fightinfrenchman]

https://twitter.com/MarinaDiamandis/sta ... 8242667521

You shouldn't seek being unhappy as some sort of artistic endevaour. Being "cool" is really more about having self-confidence, most of what you listed isn't really objectively "cool."

[deleted_user]

Hard truth most people aren't willing to admit. I mean what I said.

[Horsemen]

Depression is self-indulgence